do you ever wonder if there’s someone out there who secretly admires you?  (and i’m not talking about a silly high school crush) i mean, do you think there are certain individuals who look at you and think that you have it made.  you have a great life, and they look upon you with awe and respect?

here’s my list of some Lucky People

1.  My cousin.  She’s married to a great guy, has a really good job, and has her head on straight.  It took her some time to get it right, but when she did, she became steadfast on her religion, and I suppose God blessed her life.  She is expecting a baby, due in November.  She’s stylish, loving, and has a huge heart.
2.  Another cousin of mine.  She has no worries.  Although I often worry about her because she has no fear of an Afterlife or any consequences to her actions, I can’t help but imagine the life she’s living.  She’s younger than I am, but is so carefree, and seems so happy because of it.  I feel like I am constantly wondering if what I’m doing is right or wrong, but she sets her own standards, so never has to worry.
3.  My sister-in-law.  She’s lived in California all of her life.  This was her year, she graduated from medical school, got accepted into a Residency program, and just got married to the best man I know.
4.  Yet another cousin of mine.  She’s married, with three amazing kids.  She’s a doctor with her own clinic.  Beautiful, hilarious, and has a british accent.
5. This girl that I have never met.  She is engaged to an amazing guy.  I wonder if she knows how lucky she is.
6. Lauren Conrad.  She’s living the life in LA; friends, fashion, parties.  Quite the glamorous lifestyle – one that I will never live.

okay, maybe the last one was just for kicks.  but i wouldn’t say i’m envious of these individuals, because i really think they deserve the life they’re living.  i think it just takes a lot of time and effort to get to the place that i want to be.  but honestly, do you think that no matter where you go in life, there is one point where you can say you are content?  as unfortunate as it is, i feel like i will always desire more.

Grown-ups never understand anything by themselves, and it is tiresome for children to be always explaining things to them.

If I was a flower growing wild and free
All I’d want is you to be my sweet honey bee.
And if I was a tree growing tall and green
All I’d want is you to shade me and be my leaves

All I want is you, will you be my bride
Take me by the hand and stand by my side
All I want is you, will you stay with me?
Hold me in your arms and sway me like the sea.

If you were a river in the mountains tall,
The rumble of your water would be my call.
If you were the winter, I know I’d be the snow
Just as long as you were with me, let the cold winds blow

If you were a wink, I’d be a nod
If you were a seed, well I’d be a pod.
If you were the floor, I’d wanna be the rug
And if you were a kiss, I know I’d be a hug

If you were the wood, I’d be the fire.
If you were the love, I’d be the desire.
If you were a castle, I’d be your moat,
And if you were an ocean, I’d learn to float.

All I want is you, will you be my bride
Take me by the hand and stand by my side
All I want is you, will you stay with me?
Hold me in your arms and sway me like the sea.

-barry louis polisar

i really hope you enjoy it as much as i do.